THE TEARS
OF PAUL
Dr. W. A.
Criswell
Acts 20:31
12-31-78
7:30 p.m.
And once again a tremendous
privilege, God-given, blessed of heaven in our dear First Baptist Church in
Dallas, to share this evening hour with the uncounted thousands and thousands
of you who are listening to the service over KRLD. And tonight, because
of the inclement weather in our part of the world, I suppose there are more
thousands of you who are listening than in any Sunday night in which we have ever
broadcast these services. Then of course over KCBI, the radio station of
our Bible Institute, welcome and God open your heart as the message is
delivered tonight by the pastor entitled THE TEARS OF PAUL.
In your Bible if you will turn to
the twentieth chapter of the Book of Acts. Acts chapter 20, we shall
begin reading in the thirty-first verse and read to the end of the
chapter. And wherever you are tonight, if it is possible, get your Bible,
open it to the Book of Acts. Turn to chapter 20 and beginning at verse 31,
read it out loud with us. Acts chapter 20 verse 31; all of us now reading
it aloud together:
Therefore watch, and remember,
that by the space of three years I ceased not to warn every one night and day
with tears.
And now, brethren, I commend you
to God, and to the word of His grace, which is able to build you up, and to
give you an inheritance among all of them which are sanctified.
I have coveted no man’s silver, or
gold or apparel.
Yea, ye yourself know, that these
hands have ministered unto my necessities, and to them that were with me.
I have shewed you all things, how
that so laboring ye ought to support the weak, and to remember the words of the
Lord Jesus, how He said, It is more blessed give than to receive.
And when he had thus spoken, he
kneeled down, and prayed with them all.
And they all wept sore, and fell
on Paul’s neck, and kissed him.
Sorrowing most of all for the
words which he spake, that they should see his face no more. And they
accompanied him unto the ship.
[Acts 20:31-38]
There are by far more personal
details revealed to us in the life of the apostle Paul from the pages of the
Bible than revealed of any other personality that moves across the pages of this
sacred Book. His feelings, how he responded, his suffering, his tears—the
innermost life of this apostle and missionary of Christ is revealed. And
we can see him, how he thinks, how things affected him, how he responded in so
many of the situations that developed in his missionary life and missionary
journeys. You could ask, “Why is the Bible so filled with these pages and
chapters and Books—opening to us the innermost life and heart and soul of this
apostle of Jesus Christ?” And when you think of it and look at the life
of Paul, the answer is very evident.
Paul wrote in First Corinthians
chapter eleven the first verse, “be ye followers of me, as I am a follower of
Christ” [1 Corinthians 11:1]. So closely identified was Paul with the
life and heart and love and outreach and atoning grace of our blessed Savior,
that to follow the work and to give dedicatory subservience and surrender to
the will of Christ was identical. Following Paul, we follow the
Lord. That is why, in the providence of God, so much of the innermost
life of this glorious exponent of the faith and missionary statesman is
revealed to us in the Bible. Looking at him, following him, patterning
our life after his example, we pattern our life and follow the blessed example
of our Lord.
Paul was a man of such diverse
feelings and emotions and characteristics. He was a man of tremendous
energy and yet, filled with weakness. He speaks of the weaknesses, “…messengers
from Satan to buffet him.” And when he took it to the Lord, God said to
him, “My grace is sufficient for thee.”
“Therefore,” wrote the apostle, “I
take pleasures in”— necessities, and deprivations, and trials, and
persecutions, and sorrows, and heartaches—“for when I am weak, then I am strong”
[2 Corinthians 12:7-10].
What conflict in life and
personality, so tremendous a man, and yet bowed in such weakness. He was
a man of such tremendous energy. It’s almost unthinkable what he did in
spreading the gospel of Christ in the Greco-Roman—the civilized world.
And yet with all of his dynamism and all of his tremendous force, he is gentle
as a woman. He will weep, he will cry, he will be moved, he will be hurt,
he will lament, he will love his people so much that when they fall into error
or mistake, it is as though the Lord himself was grieving over his derelict
children. What a difference in the personality of the man.
He is a man of tremendous
convictions—laid down his life for the faith, accosted Simon Peter face to face
when he was to be reprimanded. Fearless, a man of infinite conviction,
dedication, and yet at the same time, he has the heart of a child—humble,
teachable, malleable, listening to the voice of the Spirit of God. This
man has the drive of a king, of a general, and at the same time, has the
gentleness and the softness and the preciousness of a woman.
Well, when you look at him, and
think of him as the pattern for our own life, you immediately come to the
conclusion, “He is not a stoic, he is a Christian!” And he can be moved
by the sufferings and the derelictions of humankind. And that is we, we are
not to be stoics! We also can be hurt and moved and can be full of sorrow and
tears by the trials and the sufferings and the derelictions of our
people.
Our Lord was like that, moved in His
heart, moved to tears—crying. I don’t read in the Bible that He ever
laughed. There are places in His conversation that lend itself to
humor. He was so pointed in some of the words that He said as He observed
the life of the religious leaders, but in the Bible never a word that He
laughed, nor that He even smiled. But three different times in the life of our
Lord it is said that He cried. He burst into tears, as the Greek word has
it, He wept. He wept at the tomb of Lazarus, in the grief of Mary and Martha;
when He behold the city from the brow of Olivet, He cried over the lost city;
and we are told that in Gethsemane, He wept before Him who was able to deliver Him
from death. And learned obedience in the things that He suffered—the will
of God that He die for our sins. This is our Lord! And this is the
apostle Paul.
In the twentieth chapter of the
Book of Acts, it is said three times. He speaks three times of his tears.
In verse 19, he says, “serving the Lord with all humility of mind, and many
tears and”—translated here, “temptations”, trials, peirasmos—tears and
trials. Then in verse 34, “remember, that by the space of three years, I
ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears,” and then in verse 37, “and
he kneeled down, and prayed with them all.” And they wept in that parting
prayer. These three times in this small address, this short address, of
our apostle to the pastors at Ephesus—three times is he presented there as
crying, as weeping.
Against the life and missionary
work of the apostle Paul, there is always that overtone of sorrow and heartache
and tears. Look at it. It says in the 16th chapter of the Book of
Acts, that Paul and Silas, after they were beat, scourged, flailed, placed into
prison in Philippi in stocks and in chains. And at midnight, beat as they
were, they praised God and sang hymns to the Lord [Acts 16:25]. And the
whole story is one of victory and uplift and triumph! And you feel it
when you read the story; it is just almost incomparable in literature.
The spirit, the triumphant spirit of this man, singing and praising God in
prison but when you look at the story and look at the overtone, you know what
you read? It says in the Book the Philippian jailer, noticing the blood
clots on the back of the apostle where he had been beat unmercifully by those
Roman lictors, the Philippian jailer, now converted, noticed those blood clots
on his back. And it says in the Bible that he “washed their stripes”
[Acts 16:33]. That is just incidentally said; just incidentally
mentioned. But it is always that overtone of suffering and affliction—washing
stripes;, the beat, bloody backs of Paul and Silas.
All right, look at it again.
I suppose that in the fourth chapter of the Second letter to Timothy, the swan
song of the apostle Paul, I suppose that in that chapter you will find one of
the most triumphant words in the Bible. A victorious salutation,
benediction, do you remember it? “I have fought a good fight, I have
finished my course, I have kept the faith: henceforth there is laid up for me a
crown of righteousness, which the Lord, the righteous judge, shall give me in
that day: and not unto me only, but all of them also that love His appearing”
[2 Timothy 4:7, 8]. One of the great, great avowals of faith, commitment,
triumph to be found in the whole word of God.
All right, the overtone now.
You read that chapter and writing to Timothy, he’ll say: Timothy, when you
come, bring the cloak that I left in Troas with Carpus. [2 Timothy
4:13]. That is, “This dungeon is cold and damp—and when you come, bring
the cloak, the coat that I left in Troas with Carpus.” In prison, dark, damp,
cold!
Take again, in the Book of
Philippians, he will write one of the most beautiful letters in the
Bible. It is a love letter literally. Imprisoned in Rome, they send
him a gift and he writes this letter back—sends it by Epaphroditus—thanking
them for their remembrance of him in his need, in prison in Rome. Then,
as he writes this letter, saying rejoice in the Lord and always, “I say, rejoice!”
[Philippians 4:4] Rejoice always in the Lord! That is the tone of the letter,
but as he writes it, you can hear the overtone—the clanking of the chain as he
writes in prison chained to a Roman soldier. And he speaks of that in the
first chapter of the Book. How his chains, his bonds have been made known
throughout the Praetorian Guard. Chained all day, all night, every day,
every night—the overtone of his life, one of trial and affliction.
Take again. He will write in
the Corinthians letter about his self-sufficiency. He works with his own
hands. He pays his own way. He is not chargeable to
strangers. And he preaches the gospel, supporting himself. He
mentions it here in the passage that we have read. “Ye, yourselves know,
how these hands have ministered unto my necessities, and them that were with
me. I have showed you—I’ve given you example how that so laboring, ye
ought to support others, remembering it’s more blessed to give than to receive”
[Acts 20:34, 35]. That is the apostle Paul—self-sufficient; not
chargeable to strangers; working with his own hands; taking care of
himself.
Yet, look at him. In that
same Corinthians letter, he will write an overtone in his life. He
mentions the fact and he notices that Cephas, Simon Peter, and James the Lord’s
brother, and the other apostles all have wives. And as they move in their
missionary work, their wives go with them. But he mentions the fact that
he is alone. There is nobody to comfort him and strengthen him, and be a
companion with him in a home. He is by himself, alone; the overtone in
the life of sorrow of the apostle.
May I point out just one
more? The apostle has the signs of an apostle—miracles, healings.
It is wonderful! Even from his person they would take handkerchiefs and lay
them upon the sick and the sick would be healed: Glorious, but always that
overtone in his life. He loved Timothy, but he did not heal Timothy. He
loved Trophimus; he left Trophimus at Miletus, sick. And of himself, a thorn in
the flesh; in the flesh some kind of physical ailment, hurt, illness. He
couldn’t heal himself, and he lived his life with that buffeting of Satan in
his flesh. In the life of the apostle Paul, you will find those overtones
of sorrow and tears and triumph.
And now, the three that he
mentions here in the twentieth chapter of the Book of Acts, “Serving the Lord
with all humility of mind and with many tears” [Acts 20:19] and with many tears
and—peirasmos—trials. The life of the apostle from the beginning
was that. The Lord said to him when God called him into the apostleship,
into his discipleship, into his ministry. I Lord said to him: “I will
show him how great things he must suffer for My name’s sake” [Acts 9:16].
And his whole life is that. Do you realize that most of the life of the apostle
Paul as a minister of the gospel of the Son of God, most of it was spent in
prison? What an unusual thing. And yet when you study it, it was
only out of a life that was buffeted, and beat, and bruised, and tormented that
such letters could have been written as we have here in the New Testament from
the pen of the apostle Paul. “I will show him how great things he must
suffer for my Name’s sake” [Acts 9:16]. That was his call into the
ministry, and his whole life is that.
When he began preaching at
Damascus, that he might be spared, they let him down over the wall in a
basket. When he came to Jerusalem, there was stirred up against him such
vicious and violent and vitriolic opposition that they sent him out to Silica,
to Tarsus where he came from. When he began his preaching in the first
missionary journey in Lystra, they dragged him out for dead—stoned him, they
thought, to death. At Philippi, beat and in prison; spending three years
in prison in Caesarea, in Judea, and finally sent to Rome, as a prisoner—chained
to a Roman soldier. Most of his life as a preacher was spent in bonds, in
chains, in manacles, in stocks in prison. “Show him how great things he must
suffer for My name’s sake.”
And here in the Corinthians
letter, he writes of those sufferings. Listen to him as he says,
. . . in labors abundant, in
stripes above measure. In prisons frequent, in deaths oft.
Five times of the Jews received I
forty stripes save one.
Thrice was I beaten with Roman
rods, once was I stoned, thrice I suffered shipwreck, a night and a day I have
been in the deep;
In journeyings often, in perils of
waters. In perils of robbers, in perils of mine countrymen, in perils by
the heathen, In perils in the city, in perils in the wilderness, in perils in
the sea, in perils among false brethren.
In weariness and painfulness, in
watchings often, and hunger and thirst, in fastings often, in cold and
nakedness
[2 Corinthians 11:23-27]
What
a ministry! God calls him, and into what? “I will show him,” says the
Lord. “what great things he must suffer for My name’s sake” [Acts 9:16].
Now, an inevitable question; why
doesn’t he quit? Why doesn’t he quit? “Lord, Lord if this is my
assignment and this is my work, I refuse!” Why doesn’t he quit? All
right, he speaks of that. He says in I Corinthians 9:16:
For necessity is laid upon me;
yea, woe is unto me, if I preach not the gospel!. If I do it willingly,
I have a reward, but if my will is not in it”—oikoinomia—“a dispensation
is committed unto me”
[1 Corinthians 9:16,
17].
Whether I want to or whether I don’t
want to, this is God’s call for my life and necessity is laid upon me.
The oikoinomia, the dispensation, the stewardship of God; that’s what it
is to serve the Lord! We’re not doing it for what we get out of it.
We are not doing it for pay. We are not doing it for prestige. We
are not doing it to be honored. We are not doing to be elected. We
are not doing it to be furthered. We are not doing it to be praised or
even acknowledged. We are doing it for Jesus, He called us! This is
His assignment for us: necessity is laid upon me.
In the years gone by when I was in
Oklahoma, I heard of two Southern Baptist Missionaries in Oklahoma. One
was named Hogan and the other was named Bradford Hays. And in the midst
of an awesome trial, Hogan said to his friend Mays, “I am quitting. I am
resigning. I am going back home. This is too much.” So
Bradford Hays said to his friend and fellow missionary, “I understand, and I
know, but before you go, would you sit down and sing just one song with me?”
And Bradford Hays got his guitar and he strummed the tune and they sang:
Am I a soldier of the cross,
A follower of the lamb?
And shall I fear to own His cause,
Or blush to speak His name?
Must I be carried to the skies
On flowery beds of ease,
While others fought to win the prize,
And sailed through bloody seas?
Are there no foes for me to
face?
Must I not stem the flood?
Is this vile world a friend to grace,
To carry me on to God?
No, I must fight if I would reign;
Increase my courage, Lord;
I’ll bear the toil, endure the pain,
Supported by Thy word.
[“Am I a Soldier of the
Cross?”; Isaac Watts]
And
when they got through singing the song, Hogan turned to Bradford Hays and said,
“I am staying. I am staying.”
God never called us to flowery
beds of ease. God called us to be his workmen and His servants and His
witnesses. And however it may turn in His gracious hands, to God be the
glory. Here I stand, so help me, amen—the tears of his discipleship,
apostleship.
Number two, the tears of his
compassionate, and shepherdly, and seeking heart: “remember, by the space of
three years I ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears” [Acts
20:31]. “Testifying both to the Jews and to the Greeks”—from house to
house—”repentance toward God, and faith toward our Lord Jesus Christ” [Acts
20:21].
Now, once again may I
present the apostle Paul? I do not know how many times, world without end
do I hear at a convention, at an evangelistic conference, at a pastor’s
meeting, read it in a Book, “this man is the greatest preacher since Paul!”And
they will speak of some marvelous orator, some man of distinguished presence
and majestic mean and glorious perorations. I know what they mean when
they say that—“This man is the greatest preacher since Paul!” They think
of a man of tremendous oratorical ability and glorious forensic presence.
In the tenth chapter, in the tenth verse of the Second Corinthian letter, Paul
describes what kind of a preacher he was, and how people responded to him when
they saw him and heard him. Paul quotes them saying, “his bodily presence
is weak, and his speech is contemptible” [2 Corinthians 10:10]. That is
what they said about him when they saw and heard him—greatest preacher since
Paul; weak and contemptible in presence and in speech.
Well, how did he do his
work? I would suppose that the greatest revival meeting outside of Nineveh
that the world has ever seen is the revival meeting of the apostle Paul in the
city of Ephesus. All Asia, the Roman province of Asia, was turned to the
Lord. The seven churches of Asia were founded in that ministry. The
whole province was moved Godward. Well, how did he do it? He tells
these Ephesian elders, “remember”—and then he describes it—”by the space of
three years I ceased not to warn every one night and day with tears”; pleading
from house to house, “testifying, . . . repentance toward God, and faith toward
our Lord Jesus Christ.” Can you conceive of a ministry like that?
With tears from house to house; pleading the cause, the faith, the blessing,
the salvation of the Lord Jesus Christ. What an amazing ministry.
I don’t see men like this much any
more, but when I was growing up, as a youth I would listen to L. R.
Scarborough, President of our Southwestern Baptist Theological Seminary.
And as I would listen to him at school, at the university, in revival, in a
conference, my heart would be so moved and I remember so many things that he
said.
This is one. He was holding
a meeting in Hillsboro, down there in central Texas. And there was a
godly physician in the church who had a young partner, a young doctor, who was
not a Christian. And that older physician, the older partner prayed for the
young doctor and took him to church. And Dr. Scarborough preached that
day on John 6:37: “he that cometh unto Me I will in no wise cast out.”
And the young fellow was saved. The young doctor came forward and gave
his heart to Jesus. And Dr. Scarborough said he let the young man
testify. “How were you saved?” And the young physician replied, “I
was saved by the explanation of the preacher of John 6:37, and by the tears of
this beloved physician who stands by me here.” Isn’t it remarkable how
little things like that stay in your heart? “I was saved by the preaching
of the gospel and by the tears of this beloved physician here. “ Did you
know I have seen that world without end in my own work as an under
shepherd?
I remember one time going to a
home, to try to win a boy to the Lord Jesus. I sat by his side in the
living room and I opened my Bible and I talked to that boy about the Word of
God. How we are lost, God says so; how we are to be judged for our sins,
God says so; and how in pity and mercy Jesus came to the world to make
atonement for our sins, God says so; and now He commands us to repent and to
turn and to accept the Lord Jesus and to receive Him as our Savior. And
as I talked, I never saw a boy more indifferent, hardened, like an old
man. I sat there and talked to that lad in despair. Do you know,
while I was speaking to him and falling into abysmal discouragement, there came
into the living room his older sister. And she took a chair and kind of
sat by his side, kind of at an angle. And as I continued to speak and
plead with that boy, she buried her face in her hand like that and the tears
rolled between her fingers and dropped to the floor. And as I spoke, that
sister buried her face in her hands, prayed and cried. That boy would
look at his sister and those tears dropping between her fingers. And he
would look back at me. And he would look at his sister and back at
me. In no time he was under deep conviction. And in no time, he was
in the kingdom of God, saved by the testimony of the preacher, the Word of God,
and by the tears of that sweet girl seated there. There is power in
it.
Paul describes it as such.
That was the basis, the reason for the great revival meeting in Ephesus: day
and night with many tears from house to house, testifying repentance toward God
and faith toward our Lord Jesus Christ. Third, “and when he had spoken,
he kneeled down and prayed with them all and they wept sore” [Acts 20:36, 37]—tears
of love and affection for the people of God.
This morning, I spoke about that
in the message My Life And My Church; describing how I feel in other countries
with people of a different language, of a different culture, different
nationality, moved by their presence and their love for Jesus. And now,
because of the sermon is to be placed in the third volume of my expository
messages on acts, I want to recount in closing why it is that we sing “Blessed
be the Tie that Binds” at the close of our Lord’s Supper; moved by the spirit
of the love and affection and fellowship of God’s people.
A few months after the Second
World War, I was in Munich, Germany. And the devastation was so vast —a
wilderness of rubble. And our Baptist church in the city of Munich of
course, destroyed, bombed out, and the people scattered; so many of them
killed. And in the few months afterward, I attended the service, preached
there—a little handful of people returning back to the city. Their church
had been utterly destroyed. It was a heap of rubble. And in some
kind of a lean- to, propped up, with lanterns the little wretched, miserable,
destroyed, beaten group had regathered. And I preached to them the best
that I could. How could you forget a service like that and a night like
that?
Well, a few years passed, and I
was back in Munich. And Sunday morning, I attended the church alone—by
myself; no one knew that I was present. I just quietly entered the church
and worshiped with those dear people alone. They had rebuilt their
sanctuary. It was not finished; everywhere it was still in the making. But
they had rebuilt it enough in which they could hold their services. And the
pastor conducted them. He was much crippled—he was very crippled. I asked
about him. He had been grievously hurt in the war and was there leading the
congregation as their pastor. So very wounded and crippled from that raging
conflict.
Then after the service
was over, they observed the ordinance of the Lord’s Supper as we had planned to
do here tonight. And after the service was over, they all stood up and I in
their midst, and they joined hands and I joined hands with those on either side
of me and they sang that song: Blessed be the tide that binds.
Dear people, I
couldn’t understand the services. I’m not that proficient in German. I
couldn’t understand the sermon. I could only know the hymn tune, the melody that
they were singing. But as I sat there in the service, not understanding a
sentence the preacher said, And as I sat there and listened to the singing, and
as I stood there in joined hands with those dear people, singing the melody of
the:
Blest be the
tie that binds
Our hearts
in Christian love;
The
fellowship of kindred minds
Is like to
that above,
And when
we asunder part,
It gives
us inward pain;
But we
shall still be joined in heart,
And hope to
meet again.
[“Blest Be
the Tie”; John Fawcett]
Why bless your heart,
I felt there with those strangers. I didn’t know anybody, not a soul could I
name, couldn’t even understand the language. But as I sat there and listened
and stood there joining hands, my heart was in the presence of God himself.
And I felt the
communion and the fellowship, the koinonia, the sweetness of being with
God’s people. That’s what happened here. He kneeled down and prayed and they
all wept tears of love, tears of joy, tears of gladness, tears of praise, tears
of affection.
And that’s why when I
came back home to Dallas, beginning at that next service of the Lord’s Supper,
we stand and join hands and we sing: Blessed be the Tie.